| Pran Nath

One
afternoon, three years after the beginning of the new century, red
dust that was once rich mountain soil quivers in the air. It falls
on a rider who is making slow progress through the ravines that
score the plains south of the mountains, drying his throat, filming
his clothes, clogging the pores of his pink perspiring English face.
His
name is Ronald Forrester, and dust is his specialty. Or rather,
his specialty is fighting dust. In the European club at Simla they
never tire of the joke: Forrester the forester. Once or twice
he tried to explain it to his Indian subordinates in the Department,
but they failed to see the humor. They assumed the name came with
the job. Forester Sahib. Like Engineer Sahib, or Mr. Judge.
Forrester
Sahib fights the dust with trees. He has spent seven years up in
the mountains, riding around eroded hillsides, planting sheltering
belts of saplings, educating his peasants about soil conservation,
and enforcing ordinances banning logging and unlicensed grazing.
Thus he is the first to appreciate the irony of his current situation.
Even now, on leave, his work is following him around.
He
takes a gulp from a flask of brackish water and strains in the saddle
as his horse slips and rights itself, sending stones bouncing down
a steep, dry slope. It is late afternoon, so at least the heat is
easing off. Above him the sky is smudged by blue-black clouds, pregnant
with the monsoon that will break any day. He wills it to come soon.
Forrester
came down to this country precisely because it has no trees. Back
at his station, sitting on the veranda of the Government Bungalow,
he had the perverse idea that treelessness might make for a restful
tour. Now he is here he does not like it. This is desolate country.
Even the shooting is desultory. Save for the villagers sparse
crops, painstakingly watered by a network of dykes and canals, the
only plants are tufts of sharp yellow grass and stunted thorn bushes.
Amid all this desiccation he feels uncomfortable, dislocated.
As
the sun heats up his tent in the mornings, Forrester has accelerated
military-march-time dreams. Dreams of trees. Regiments of deodars,
striding up hill and down dale like coniferous redcoats. Neem, sal,
and rosewood. Banyans that spawn roots like tentacles, black foliage
blotting out the blue of the sky. Even English trees make an appearance,
trees he has not seen for years. Oddly shaped oaks and drooping
willows mutate in lockstep as he tosses and turns. The dreams eject
him sweating and unrested, irritated that his forests have been
twisted into something agitated, silly. A sideshow. A musical comedy
of trees. Even before he has had time to shave, red rivulets of
sweat and dust will be running off his forehead. He has, he knows,
only himself to blame. Everyone said it was a stupid time of year
to come south.
If
asked, Forrester would find it difficult to explain what he is doing
here. Perhaps he came out of perversity, because it is the season
when everyone else travels north to the cool of the hills. He has
spent three weeks just riding around, looking for something. He
is not sure what. Something to fill a gap. Until recently his life
in the hills had seemed enough. Lonely, certainly. Unlike some,
Forrester talks to his staff, and is genuinely interested in the
details of their lives. But differences of race are hard to overcome,
and even at the university he was never the social type. There was
always a distance.
More
conventional men would have identified the gap as woman shaped,
and spent their leave wife hunting at tea parties and polo matches
in Simla. Instead Forrester, difficult, taciturn, decided to see
what life was like without trees. He has found he does not care
for it. This is progress, of a sort. To Forrester, the trick of
living lies principally in sorting out what one likes from what
one does not. His difficulty is that he has always found so little
to put on the plus side of the balance sheet. And so he rides through
the ravines, a khaki-clad vacancy, dreaming of trees and waiting
for something, anything, to fill him up.
That
something is no more than a mile off as the crow flies, though with
the undulations of the dirt track, the distance is probably doubled.
As the sun sinks lower, Forrester makes out a glint of light on
metal and a flash of pink against the dun-colored earth. He halts
and watches, feeling his jaw become inexplicably tight, stiffening
in the saddle like a cavalryman on parade. He has seen no one for
the last day and a half. Gradually he discerns a party of men, Rajput
villagers by the looks of them, leading camels and escorting a curtained
palanquin, bumpily carried at shoulder height by four of their number.
By
the time the party is within hailing distance, the sun has dipped
almost to the horizon. Bands of angry red show against a wall of
thick gray cloud. Forrester waits, his horse stamping its hooves
on one bank of a dried-up stream bed. The palanquin bearers stop
a little way off and put down their load. Heads swathed in enormous
pink turbans, mustaches teased out to extravagant length, they appraise
the sweating Englishman like buyers eyeing up a bullock. Eight sets
of black eyes, curious and impassive. Forresters hand flutters
involuntarily up to his neck.
From
the rear pops up a lean middle-aged man, clad in a dhoti and a grubby
white shirt, a black umbrella under his arm. He looks like a railway
clerk, or a personal tutor, his appearance strange and jarring against
the wasteland. He is clearly in charge, and just as clearly irked
that his servants have not waited for instructions to halt. Shouldering
his way forward he salaams Forrester, who touches the brim of his
topi in response. Forrester is about to speak to him in Hindi, when
the man salutes him in English.
Looks
like rain, what?
They
both peer up at the sky. As if in response a fat drop of water lands
on Forresters face.

Fire
and water. Earth and air. Meditate on these oppositions and reconcile
them. Collapse them in on themselves, send them spiraling down a
tunnel of blackness to reemerge whole, one with the all, mere aspects
of the great unity of things whose name is God. Thought can travel
on in this manner, from part to whole, smooth as the touch of the
masseurs oiled hands in the hammam. Amrita wishes she could
carry on thinking forever. That would be true sweetness! But she
is only a woman, and forever will not be granted her. In the absence
of infinity she will settle for spinning out what time she has,
teasing it into a fine thread.
Inside
the palanquin it is hot and close, the smells of food and stale
sweat and rosewater mingling with another smell, sharp and bitter.
Once again Amritas hand reaches out for the little sandalwood
box of pills. She watches the hand as she would a snake sliding
across a flagstone floor, with detachment and an edge of revulsion.
Yes, it is her hand, but only for now, only for a while. Amrita
knows that she is not her body. This crablike object, fiddling with
box and key and pellets of sticky black resin, belongs to her only
as does a shawl, or a piece of jewelry.
A
bump. They have stopped. Outside there are voices. Amrita rejoices.
At nineteen years old, this is will be her last journey, and any
delay is cause for celebration. She swallows another opium pellet,
tasting the bitter resin on her tongue.

Just
as it does every year, the wind has blown steadily out of the southwest,
rolling its cargo of doughy air across the plain to slap hard against
the mountains. For days, weeks, the air has funneled upward, cooling
as it rises, spinning vast towers of condensation over the peaks.
Now these hanging gardens of cloud have ripened to the point where
they can no longer maintain themselves.
So,
the rain.
It
falls first over the mountains, an unimaginable shock of water.
Caught in the open, herdsmen and woodcutters pull their shawls over
their heads and run for shelter. Then in a chain reaction, cloud
speaking to cloud, the rain rolls over the foothills, dousing fires,
battering on roofs, bringing smiles to the faces of the people who
run outside to greet it, the water for which they have been waiting
so long.
Finally
it comes to the desert. As it starts to fall, Forrester listens
to the grubby Brahmins chit-chat, and hears himself tetchily
agreeing that now would be a good time and here a good place to
camp. Perhaps this Moti Lal is offended by his brusqueness, but
Forrester cant worry about that. His eyes are fixed on the
palanquin, the grumpy maid fussing around its embroidered curtain.
Its occupant has not even ventured a peek outside. He wonders if
she is ill, or very old.
Soon
the rain is falling steadily, swollen droplets splashing into the
dust like little bombs. Camels fidget and grumble as they are hobbled.
Servants run around unpacking bags. Moti Lal keeps up a steady stream
of conversation as Forrester dismounts and unsaddles his horse.
Moti Lal is not the master here, oh no, just a trusted family retainer.
It has fallen to him, the duty of escorting the young mistress to
her uncles house in Agra. Most unusual, of course, but there
are extenuating circumstances.
Extenuating
circumstances? What is the bloody fool on about? Forrester asks
where they have come from, and the man names a small town at least
two hundred miles west of where they stand.
And
you have walked all the way?
Yes,
sir. The young mistress says walk only.
Why
on earth didnt you go by rail? Agra is hundreds of miles from
here.
Unfortunately
train is out of the question. Such are extenuating circumstances,
you see.
Forrester
does not see, but at the moment he is far more concerned with erecting
his tent before the rain worsens. It seems to be getting stronger
by the second. Moti Lal puts up his umbrella and stands over the
Englishman as he bashes in pegs, just close enough to get in his
way without actually offering any shelter. Forrester curses under
his breath, while all the time the thought circulates in his head;
so she is a young woman.

Rain
drips through the ceiling and lands in her lap, darkening red silk
with circles of black. Amrita turns her face upward and sticks out
her tongue. The rain sounds heavy. Outside it is dark and perhaps,
though she is not sure, she feels cold. To ward off the feeling
she imagines heat, calling up memories of walking on the roof of
her fathers haveli in summertime. Vividly she senses the burning
air on her arms and face. She hears the thud of carpets being beaten
and the swish of brooms as the maids sweep sand from the floors.
But heat leads on to thoughts of her father, of walking around the
pyre as the priest throws on ghee to make it flame, and she recoils
back to the dark and cold. Drops of water land on her forehead,
on one cheek, on her tongue. Soon the rain is pouring through in
a constant stream. The soaked curtains start to flap limply against
her side. The wind is rising, and still no one has come for her.
No one has even told her what is happening. With no mother or father
she is mistress now. If only she could gather the energy to assert
herself.
Amrita
unlocks her box, shielding it from the water. She is to be delivered
to her uncle, and that will be an end. He writes that he has already
found her a husband. At least, said the old women, she will arrive
with a good dowry. So much better off than other girls. She should
thank God.
Within
half an hour the dust has turned to mud. Despite his tent Forrester
is drenched. He clambers to the top of a hill and looks out over
the desert, scored by a fingerprint whorl of valleys and ridges.
There is no shelter. As the wind tugs at his topi and forked lightning
divides the sky into fleeting segments, he is struck by the thought
that perhaps he has been a fool. His red-brown world has turned
gray, solid curtains of water obscuring the horizon. Here he is,
out in the middle of it, not a tree in sight. He is the tallest
thing in this barren landscape, and he feels exposed. Looking
back down at his tent, set at the bottom of a deep gully, he wonders
how long the storm will last. The Indians are still struggling
to put up their own shelters, fumbling with rope and pegs. Amazingly,
the palanquin is still where they discarded it. If he had not
been told otherwise, he would have sworn the thing must be empty.
Before
long, a trickle of muddy water is flowing through the gully, separating
Forresters army tent from the Indians contraptions
of tarpaulin and bamboo. A fire is out of the question and so
the bearers are huddled together forlornly, squatting on their
haunches like a gaggle of bidi-smoking birds. Moti Lal climbs
the ridge to engage Forrester in another pointless conversation,
then follows him back down the hill and crouches at the door of
the tent. Finally Forrester is forced to give in and talk.
So
who exactly is your mistress?
Moti
Lals face darkens.
She
was always ungovernable, even before her mother died. Her father
took no notice of her, whether she was good or bad, too busy weighing
out coin to bother about the world outside his cloth-bound ledgers.
The servants would come and report to him in the countinghouse,
saying that the girl had thrown a cup at the porter, that she
refused food, that she had been seen speaking to Bikaneri tribeswomen
by the Cremation Gate. In the mornings her maid would find sand
when she was combing her hair, as if she had spent the night out
in the desert.
She
was bringing shame on the family, and if the master chose to ignore
it, the job of curbing her fell to his head clerk. At first Moti
Lal used words. Then, when he found a cake of sticky black resin
in her jewelry box, he dragged her into the courtyard and beat
her with a carved stick kept for scaring away monkeys. She was
locked in her room for three days. Distracted as he was finalizing
a land deal, the master asked who was weeping in his house. Told
it was Amrita, he seemed surprised. Does she want for something?
he asked.
As
soon as the bolt was drawn, she disappeared, returning with a
wild look in her eye and garbled talk of trees and rushing water.
Moti Lal could never find who brought the drug to her, and gradually
she lost interest in everything else. She took to her bed, and
stopped speaking. It was as if she had withdrawn to another world.
He had to shake her and slap her face before she understood the
news about her father.
His
killer had left a length of wire wrapped tightly around his neck.
The body had been found lying on a rubbish heap outside the town
walls, the soles of its feet turned up at the sky like two pale
fish. No one seemed surprised. Moneylenders are not popular people.
Do you understand, Moti Lal shouted at her. Now you are completely
alone.
Now
the flood is coming. The earth will be drowned but like Manu the
first man, Amrita will float on the ocean and be saved. She cups
her hands and sees a little fish flip and curl in the rainwater.
She will show it compassion because it is the Lord come to her
as a sign, and though she is cold to the bone, the little horned
fish means that she will survive.
They
do not come to get her. The water saturates the palanquin, soaking
the curtains and the cushions, running over the wooden frame in
a constant stream. Amrita has no shawl, and the thin sari plastered
over her skin offers no protection. She does not expect them to
come. Moti Lal hates her and wants her dead. Why should he help
her? She should move, but it will make no difference. The flood
is imminent, and when it comes it will lift her up and sweep all
of them away.
When
it was time for the journey, Moti Lal had the haveli closed, and
the valuables packed into trunks, which went on ahead with one
of the servants. In the street, carts waited outside to take them
to the railhead, three days journey by road. Shopkeepers sat by
their scales and spat betel juice into the gutter, pointing out
to each other the possessions of the murdered Kashmiri broker;
his carpets, his scales. The bullocks swished their tails and
the drivers scratched themselves. Everything was ready. And the
girl would not go.
Moti
Lal beat her and she lay on the floor and said she would kill
herself. Moti Lal beat her again, and told her he did not care
if she lived or died, but he had given his word to her uncle that
he would bring her to Agra to be married. She said she had no
uncle in Agra and marriage meant nothing to her because soon she
would be dead. Moti Lal beat her until his arm was sore. When
her face had puffed up and a tooth had loosened in her jaw she
said she would go, but not by train. Finally, he gave in.
Moti
Lal gave in and now he has walked for weeks across country, the
sweat running off his balding pate, while inside her palanquin
Amrita lay still and had visions. Every day as he slips his feet
into his dusty chappals, he finds it more absurd. He is a trusted
man, a man with a position and a certificate, and he is trudging
across country like a beggar. Every day as he squats for his morning
evacuation, a thought bubbles up in his mindthat her will
is stronger than his. The girl does not care if she dies. It is
as if she is taunting him.
So
maybe she deserves to be left there, in the rain and the cold.
If she dies of exposure, it will be Gods work. Then he can
board the train and read a pamphlet and drink station chai out
of a glass, knowing all this is behind him. He marvels that the
slut, for all her stubbornness, will not even drag her carcass
undercover where it is dry. For the water is pouring down with
a strength he has not seen before, tearing out of the sky like
blood from an open wound.
All
the world is in the past. Now there is nothing but a torrent of
white water rushing down a mountain, and the future is contained
in that water, suspended in it like the tree trunks and thick
red mud it has swept off the hillside. The water moves at an extraordinary
pace, propelled downward as if by a great hand, and it rushes
over the desert like an army, forced through narrow clefts in
the earth until it arrives in the gully where Forrester kneels,
wrestling a loose tent peg back into the slack wet ground. He
looks up, and it appears in front of him, a huge white wall.
Oh,
God he begins, giving it a name. Then he is engulfed.
The
palanquin smashes like a childs toy, and Amrita smiles as
the night explodes into a vast rush, the force she has longed
for since she can first remember. Camels bray and strain at their
hobbles, turning end over end in the water as they try desperately
to free themselves. Men and bags are sucked down, barreling along
in the flood. For an instant Moti Lal keeps hold of his umbrella,
standing bolt upright in roiling foam with a looks-like-rain expression
on his face. Then he is swept under, and the umbrella goes skating
off across the swell. As his lungs fill with water, he thinks
with irritation about the expense of replacing it. Then, one more
bead flicked across the abacus, one more column of figures completed
with a stroke of the pen, he drowns. All the world is in the past.
This
should be everything. Yet small miracles are woven into the pattern
of every large event. Forrester finds himself snagged on something.
White water screams around his chest but leaves his head clear,
his mouth and nose free to breathe. When small hands clasp his
wrists and help him up out of the flood, he ceases to understand
what is happening to him. His consciousness is entirely adrift.
He
scrambles up a slope and falls to his hands and knees, still reflexively
gulping for breath. Gradually he realizes that he is somewhere
dry and dark, and stands up. The mouth of a cave. Again, the touch
of fingers. He recoils, then collects himself and allows his wrist
to be grasped. The hand guides him farther in. He kneels down
a second time, not entirely trusting his legs to follow orders.
He tries to breathe more slowly. It is no good. When a fire flickers
into existence, he is convinced that he has died.
The
native mother goddess stands before him in the firelight, elemental
and ferocious. Her body is smeared with mud. A wild tangle of
hair hangs over her face. She is entirely naked. Kneeling, he
flushes and averts his eyes, awed by the black-tipped breasts,
the curve of the belly, the small tight mat of pubic hair. So
much more real than the girls who populate his wakeful nights
in the mountains. Those are picture postcard girls, flimsy as
lace. They peep back over parasols, milk-white and rosy cheeked,
asking, Oh will you not come into the garden my dear.
Forrester
realizes he is in the presence of a spirit. He died in the flood
and this is some kind of phenomenon, the sort of thing one tries
to conjure up with table rapping and Ouija boards. But she seems
real, this goddess. Shaped out of the raw clay by the flood. He
wonders if he has created her, sculpted her with his sleepless
nights and his meanderings through the desert. Perhaps, he reasons,
if you lack something enough you can force it into being.
Then
she steps toward him and starts to unbutton his shirt, and as
she does so he feels the tug of fingers on button and feels her
wet hair against his cheek and smells her clean rich smell of
woman and mud and hair oil. His hands brush over her skin and
they touch real skin cut and scratched by stones and branches
and he knows he has not created her at all. She clears her hair
out of her eyes and looks directly at him, and with a start Forrester
realizes that it is the other way around. He has not created her.
She has created him. He has not, never will have, any other purpose
than the one she gives him.
As
the fire crackles and dries his skin, she strips him of his clothing
and he does not even wonder that he is in a warm dusty place with
brass water pots and a stack of brushwood piled neatly against
one wall. Outside the storm is raging and inside the cave her
small hands are curling round his penis and tugging him down in
a tumble of limbs onto the floor.
The
flood comes and the whole world is swept away except Amrita. The
water shakes and paws her, unwrapping her from her sari, batting
her around like a huge rough dog. Then it sets her down and she
slips out of it, shivering at the sear of the wind on her bare
skin. Objects stream past her in the dim light, men and beasts
and valuables, the things of the defunct world being swept off
into oblivion.
That
is the old world and she is the mother of the new. She peers into
the watery darkness and pulls a pearl-skinned man out of the flood.
He is panting like a baby. The raw heavy sound of his breathing
excites her.
Amrita
drags the pearl man backward and a roof closes over them. He falls
on the floor. She looks around. Everything is there, everything
they could need. So the mother of the world squats with flint
and tinder and lights a fire and looks at her find. He has no
color at all, face and hair washed clean and pure as milk. He
is wearing wet feringhi clothes, which she takes off. He seems
very helpless, lifting up his arms to assist her with his shirt,
putting a hand on her shoulder as he steps out of his khaki shorts.
Then
he is naked and although he is helpless he is very beautiful.
Amrita traces the line of his hip, the arrow of hair leading down
from his navel. In small extraordinary stages, his hands start
to return her touch, and soon she does something she has only
imagined, and pulls him downward.
Their
sex is inexpert and violent, more fight than sex as they roll
and claw across the packed earth floor. It happens quickly and
then for a long time they lie tangled together and breathing hard.
The unprecedented sensations of each others bodies make
them start again and they do this twice more, roll and claw, then
lie exquisitely, drunkenly still. By the last time the fire has
guttered and sweat and dust has turned their skins to an identical
red-brown color. The color of the earth.
They
lie until the fire has died out completely. Then, in an instant,
something tiny sparks in Forresters brain. This small thing
cascades into something larger and potentially threatening and
he takes a shot at giving it a name and fails, though he thinks
it may be something to do with duty and India Office ordinances,
and this thing that now seems enormous and important and panic
inducing makes him leap to his feet and stagger backward, turning
around to try and confront it or at least have some idea of its
shape and meaning. Perhaps it is unnameable, the unnameable thing
which strikes a lost man whose sole short purpose has just been
achieved, but whether or not it can be named, it makes Forrester
look at the girl wildly and understand nothing about where he
is and why, except to know that he has just changed everything
about his life and cannot see where it will lead. So Forrester
wheels around and steps out of the cave and down to the edge of
the water, which has formed itself into a fast-flowing red river.
As he rubs his eyes and straightens his back and tries to control
his panic, he sees, with a surge of joy, something coming toward
him that he knows. A young deodar tree, snapped off at the trunk,
is sailing toward him down the flooded gully, its branches quivering
like the beginning of speech. The tree seems so freighted with
wisdom and routine that it might as well be playing the National
Anthem and Forrester lets out an incoherent cry and hails it like
a cab and jumps on and is swept away. The last Amrita sees of
him is a mud-streaked torso heading downstream, continuing the
journey she interrupted a few hours before.

In
1918 Agra is a city of three hundred thousand people clenched
fist-tight around a bend in the River Jumna. Wide and lazy, the
river flows to the south and east, where eventually it will join
with the Ganges and spill out into the Bay of Bengal. This, just
one of countless towns fastened to its banks, is an anthill of
traders and craftsmen that rose out of obscurity around five hundred
years before, when the Mughals, arriving from the north, settled
on it as a place to build tombs, paint miniatures, and dream up
new and bloody modes of war.
If,
like the flying ace Indra Lal Roy, you could break free of gravity
and view the world from up above, you would see Agra as a dense,
whirling movement of earth, a vortex of mud bricks and sandstone.
To the south this tumble of mazy streets slams into the military
grid of the British cantonment. The Cantonment (gruffly contracted
to Cantt. in all official correspondence) is made up of geometric
elements like a childs wooden blocks; rational avenues and
parade grounds, barracks for the soldiers who enforce the law
of His Britannic Majesty George. To the north this military space
has a mirror in the Civil Lines, rows of whitewashed bungalows
inhabited by administrators and their wives. The hardness of this
second grid has faded and softened with time, past planning wilting
gently in the Indian heat.
Agras
navel is the fort, a mile-long circuit of brutal red sandstone
walls enclosing a confusion of palaces, mosques, water tanks,
and meeting halls. A railway bridge runs beside it, carrying passengers
into the city from every part of India. The bustling crowd at
Fort Station never thins, even in the small hours of the morning.
The crowd is part of the grand project of the railway, the dream
of unification its imperial designers have engineered into reality.
The trails of boiler smoke that rise over heat-hazy fields and
converge on the stations packed platforms are part of a
continent-wide piece of theater. Like the one hundred and three
tunnels blasted through the mountains up to Simla, the two-mile
span of the Ganges bridge in Bihar, and the one-hundred-and-forty-foot
piles driven into the mud of Surat, the press of people at the
station proclaims the power of the British, the technologists
who have all India under their control.
For
such a lively city, Agra is heavily marked by death. This is largely
the fault of the Mughals, who, in contrast to the current mechanically
minded set of masters, thought hard about the next life and the
things that get lost in the transition from this one. Everywhere
they have left cavernous mosques, chilly monuments to absence.
Around the curve of the river from the fort is the Taj Mahal.
For all its massive marble beauty, for all the relief its cold
floor and dark interior affords on a scorching day, it is a melancholy
place, forty million rupees and who knows how many lives
worth of autocratic mourning. The Emperor Shah Jahan loved Mumtaz-i-Mahal.
Now the pain of his loss rises up at the edge of town, clothed
in the work of countless hands, surrounded by a formal garden
still used as a meeting place by steam-age lovers. Despite all
this effort love still refuses to conquer, and the trysting couples
have a subdued, pensive look about them.
Now,
as it does every so often, death has come to hang over the city.
This time the killer is not siege or famine, but the influenza
epidemic, making its way eastward across the world from its mystical
birth in a pile of dung behind an American army camp. By the time
it leaves it will have taken with it a third of Agras people;
a third of all the shoemakers, potters, silk weavers, and metalworkers
in the bazaars; a third of the women pounding their washing against
flat stones by the riverbank; a third of the six hundred hands
at Johns ginning mill; a third of the convicts making rugs
in the city jail; a third of all the farmers bringing produce
in to market; a third of the porters sleeping on the station platform
between shifts; a third of the little boys playing shin-shattering
games of cricket, bowling yorkers off the baked mud of their tenement
courtyards. Rajputs, Brahmins, Chamars, Jats, Banias, Muslims,
Catholics, members of the Arya Samaj, and communicants of the
Church of England will all succumb to the same sequence of fatigue,
sweating, fever, and darkness.
Across
the world, the scale of this killing is even greater than the
slaughter that is finally playing itself out in Europe. Here,
it hangs like a miasma over the knot of streets near Drummond
Road, the quarter of the city called Johri Bazaar where the jewelers
have their shops. Now, like the pilot Roy, trailing black smoke
over faraway London, plummet down into the middle of all this
death, to a large, impressive house cut off from the street noise
by high brick walls. Swoop down over the parapet topped with shards
of broken glass to a low flat roof, a place where a boy reclines
on a charpai, one hand working steadily inside his pajamas.
Pran
Nath Razdan is not thinking about death. Quite the opposite. The
bazaars may be empty and the corridors of the Thomason hospital
clogged with corpses, but none of it has anything to do with him.
At the age of fifteen, his world is comfortably circumscribed
by the walls of his family house. The only son of the distinguished
court pleader Pandit Amar Nath Razdan, he is heir to a fortune
of many lakhs of rupees and future owner of the roof he lies on,
along with all the courtyards and gardens, the cool high-ceilinged
rooms, the servants quarters, and the innovative European-style
toilet block. Farther afield there are other houses, a brace of
villages, a boot-blacking business in Lucknow, and a share in
a silk-weaving concern. When he glimpses his future, it seems
full of promise.
With
a sigh he looks down at the tent in his raw-silk pajamas. Full
of promise. Money is the least of it. Clearly he is loved by everyone.
His father will not hear a word spoken against him. The servants
smile as they struggle upstairs with his bath water. When his
aunties come to visit, they pinch his cheeks and coo like excited
doves. Pran Nath, so beautiful! So pale! Such a perfect Kashmiri!
Pran
Nath is undeniably good looking. His hair has a hint of copper
to it, which catches in the sunlight and reminds people of the
hills. His eyes contain just a touch of green. His cheekbones
are high and prominent, and across them, like an expensive drumhead,
is stretched a covering of skin that is not brown, or even wheaten
colored, but white. Pran Naths skin is a source of
pride to everyone. Its whiteness is not the nasty blue-blotched
color of a fresh-off-the-boat Angrezi or the grayish pallor of
a dying person, but a perfect milky hue, like that of the marble
the craftsmen chip into ornate screens down by the Tajganj. Kashmiris
come from the mountains and are always fair, but Pran Naths
color is exceptional. It is proof, cluck the aunties, of the familys
superior blood.
Blood
is important. As Kashmiri pandits, the Razdans belong to one of
the highest and most exclusive castes in all Hindustan. Across
the land (as any of them will be happy to remind you) the pandits
are known for their intelligence and culture. Princes often call
on them to serve as ministers of state, and it is said that a
Kashmiri pandit was the first to write down the Vedas. The Razdan
family guru can recite their lineage back hundreds of years, back
to the time before the valley was overrun by Muslims, and they
had to leave to make a new life on the plains. The blood stiffening
the bulge in Pran Naths pajamas is of the highest quality,
guaranteed.
Pran
Nath is not alone on the roof. The servant girls choli has
ridden up her back, exposing a swath of smooth dark flesh and
a ridge of spine. She is sweating, this girl, her skin glistening
in the sunshine, her broom held loosely in one hand as she sniffs
the air, catching the strong smell of raw onions wafting up from
the masters bedchamber. Beneath her many-times-washed cotton
sari he can just make out the curve of her buttocks, which was
the original stimulus for unlacing his pajamas. Somehow looking
is no longer enough. She is not far away. He could grab her, and
pull her down on the bolsters. There would be a fuss, of course,
but his father could smooth it over. She is only a servant, after
all.
Gita
the servant girl has no idea of her peril. Her eye has been caught
by a monkey, and she is thinking how nice it would be if it spoke.
Perhaps the monkey has been sent by her prince to watch over her,
and perhaps it will grow to an enormous size and put her on its
furry shoulder and carry her off to a palace where there will
be a wedding with singers and dancingor if not a prince
then at least the monkey could turn into the pretty boy who cleans
for the fat bania druggist, or if not a shape-changing monkey
then a talking monkey who could tell her fortune, and if not a
fortune-telling monkey then one which would do something more
to distract her from her aching back than just sitting there,
scratching its lurid red bottom and rolling its lips backward
and forward over its nasty teeth. She straightens up and wipes
a hand over her forehead. As usual there is more work to do.
For
its part, the monkey has no intention of changing shape. Lacking
royal connections or powers of augury, its primary interest is
the strong onion smell wafting under its nostrils. Onions are
edible. It sits on a crumbling section of wall and cocks its head
at a shape it has spotted moving about in an open doorway, unable
to decide whether it, too, is edible, or perhaps dangerous.
The
shape is Anjali the maid, and she is trying to stay out of sight.
It is lucky she came. Something told her, a creaking in her bones,
that she should keep a close eye on her daughter today. Look at
the filthy boy! If he touches so much as a hair on little Gitas
head, he will pay for it. This is not an idle threat. Anjali the
maid knows things about Pran Nath Razdan. In fact she knows rather
more than he does himself. Just one touch, and she will tell.
Anjali
was brought up in the moneylenders house at the edge of
the desert. Some years older than the moneylenders daughter,
she had been placed with the family as a maid as soon as she was
old enough to plait hair and wield a flatiron. She watched her
young mistress withdraw from the world, and tended to her as she
lay inert on her bed, transfixed by the invisible objects of her
imagination. Among the servants Amritas madness was said
to be of that very holy type that reveals the illusory nature
of the world. Some of the women would even contrive to touch her
clothing when they brought her tea. Anjali was not one of them.
She found the girl frightening. Trying to get her to take a sip
of water or a mouthful of dhal, she would stretch her arm out
straight, keeping herself as far from the bed as she could, on
guard against evil spirits that might jump from the afflicted
body to hers. When she was told she would be accompanying her
on the journey to Agra, the first thing she did was consult a
palmist, who told her to beware of water.
Perhaps
it was this advice that saved her. After the flash flood she and
two of the porters were the only ones still left alive, or so
they thought. Searching for other survivors, they waded down a
gulley until they found a dacoits cave, with Amrita sitting
outside it, dressed in a khaki shirt and a pair of shorts. They
pulled the Englishmans naked body out of the mud a few miles
farther south. It was not hard to imagine what had happened.
Amrita
mumbled poetry words about trees, and about the water. Anjali
dressed her in a sari and made her decent, repeating charms to
ward off the evil eye. Inside the shirt pocket was an illegible
document, with a photograph of the dead Englishman. She slipped
the picture discreetly into her skirts. Once they finally reached
Agra, pulling into Fort Station on the third-class carriage of
the train, she lost no time in breaking the shocking news to the
servants of her new household. The girl had polluted herself.
Surely she would have to be sent away.
In
the uncles house the girl was locked in an upstairs room,
while the uncle held meetings with brothers and cousins. Then
one of them summoned Anjali and gave her a silver bangle, a nose
stud, and a pair of heavy earrings. She understood that she was
to keep her mouth shut. They had found a husband for Amrita, a
Razdan, and they would not tolerate any impediment to the marriage.
Had anyone asked her opinion, Anjali would have said she thought
it was an ill-fated match. She had often seen the girl naked.
She had examined her closely, and she had a mole on her stomach,
right at the very center just under her breasts. The meaning,
as she whispered to the mali, was clear. The new bride would die
young.
The
unlucky bridegroom was a very serious young man by the name of
Amar Nath, who had recently started practicing Law and was a member
of societies for the promotion of hygiene, tradition, cultural
purity, cow protection, and correct religious observance. He had
recently published an article in The Pioneer on the question
of loss of caste through foreign travel, coming down firmly against
the notion of leaving Indian soil.
Amar
Naths studies had left him little time to acquire social
graces. On first meeting his betrothed he stuttered a few words,
then stared at his shoes until the chaperones got bored and called
the tea party to a halt. Amrita, of course, said nothing at all,
a ghost of a smile playing over her face. She was beautiful, which
helped. She gave no immediate sign of insanity. Amar Nath was
a dutiful son, and his elderly parents were worried that he showed
no interest in anything except books and moral rectitude. So they
accepted her uncles assurances, and pressed their son to
do their bidding. The wedding went ahead.
It
passed off smoothly. An auspicious hour was determined, and the
ceremony duly performed. The priest spoke the mantras correctly
and the brides smile was coy and demure as she was decked
with jewelry by the young women of her new family. Sweets were
distributed to an improbable number of relatives, and the groom
looked more or less dashing as he arrived at the head of the wedding
procession. There was, however, one thing of which Anjali strongly
disapproved: the sapphire set into the brides necklace.
Sapphires are tricky gems, and though they can deflect Saturns
harmful rays, they can also focus them.
Amar
Nath was obviously taken aback by his wifes eagerness in
the marriage bed. Anjali, who had joined the household with her
mistress, sat up late and listened to his gasps of surprise, little
kittenish sounds that carried out of the window and up to the
roof where she lay. As she would later remark to the paan vendor,
it was a fair bet that this serious boy was not expecting his
silent bride to take charge in such a manner. Lucky for her he
was so unworldly. Anyone else would have become suspicious. But
although rumors of the brides adventures had already reached
as far as the hijras who came to mock the wedding guests, Amar
Nath and his family were too lofty to listen to the prattle of
eunuchs or servants. With his new wife installed safely in his
house, the bridegroom returned to his ruminations about disputed
land boundaries and the value of Persian in the education of young
gentlemen. So nine months passed, or perhaps a little less, while
the young husband attended public meetings, the young wife grew
big, and Anjali surrounded herself with a delicious web of speculation
and rumor. Then one afternoon, a shriek echoed around the courtyard.
Amrita had gone into labor. The baneful influences of the sapphire
and the mole started to take effect.

The
astrologer was called well before Pran Nath made his entry into
the world. The family installed him under a fan on a shady verandah,
where he sat drinking sweet tea and clutching his case of charts.
He
waited for a very long time.
He
finished his tea. He put his case neatly on the table in front
of him. He ate some fruit, peeling it carefully with a sharp knife.
He declined more tea. He stood up and stretched, feeling his vertebrae
click satisfyingly into place. He declined lime soda. The screams
of the laboring mother echoed around the garden.
Later
the astrologer took a short walk, smelling the jasmine and enjoying
the shade of the trees. The gardener was watering a bed of delicate
white lilies, and the astrologer stopped to praise him for his
work. The mali beamed with pride. Then the two of them fell silent,
listening as the gasps and sobs from the mothers apartment
became more anguished.
As
the sun dipped low over the roofs he was offered a bed on which
to relax. He accepted, but found it difficult to doze. Though
his business was birth and its meanings, he always found the actual
event distressing. The blood and pain. It was a womans thing,
beyond the fathoming of a man, even one educated in the science
of Jyotish, to which most common mysteries are transparent. He
preferred to think of birth as a mathematical event, the stately
progression of planets and constellations through clearly defined
houses, gridded sections of airless space. This agony, the scurrying
of maids, the scene of mess and horror that was no doubt unfolding
in the upstairs room, all of it was most unpleasant. It was not
nice to think of the planets tugging so hard at this unfortunate
womans womb. The astrologer always imagined stellar influence
as something ethereal, light to the touch.
Then
everything fell ominously silent. He strained his ears into the
gathering darkness, hearing the immense noise of insects, the
rasp of parrots arguing in the trees. Nothing else. Nothing human.
Soon a maid came, carrying an oil lamp, which she set on the table
in front of him. At once moths started beating against its glass
sides.
The
baby is born, said the maid, with an odd, triumphant expression
on her face. It is a boy. The mother is dead.
He
nodded resignedly. Then he looked at his watch, opened his case,
took out pen and paper, and set to work.
The
chart was strange and frightening. The stars had contorted themselves,
wrung themselves into a frightening shape. Their pattern of influences
had no equilibrium. It was skewed toward passion and change. To
the astrologer this distribution looked impossible. Forces tugged
in all directions, the malefic qualities of the moon and Saturn
auguring transmutations of every kind. It was a shapeshifting
chart. A chart full of lies. He kept going back to the almanac
to check his results, covering his brown-flecked paper in calculations.
The
boys future was obscure. The astrologer could predict none
of the usual thingslength of life, marital prospects, wealth.
Patterns emerged, only to fade when another aspect of the conjunction
was considered. Planets seemed to flit through houses, hovering
between benign and malevolent positions. Clusters of possibilities
formed, then fell apart. He had never been so confused by a reading.
Perhaps
(though he would not have liked to bet on it) there was a route
through the chaos. If so, then it was certainly a bizarre one.
How could so many delusions lead to their opposite, to the dissolution
of delusion? He glanced up at the square of light in the upstairs
window. The child would have to endure suffering and loss. Could
he really tell the father this? The man was grieving for his wife.
On the table a mandala of crisped moth corpses lay around the
lamp. The astrologer thought of the dead woman, and shuddered.
When
the maid came back, she found him sitting in front of a fresh,
neat chart depicting a bland future of long life, many sons, and
business success. The torn-up pieces of the first attempt had
been stuffed, out of sight, into his case.

When
the astrologer brought the master his new sons chart, Pandit
Razdan seemed satisfied, but everyone knows that astrologers say
what their clients want to hear. If a mans beard is on fire
there is always someone who will warm their hands on it, but then
again who gives a tip to the bearer of bad news? As soon as Anjali
saw the white-skinned baby, she knew it was ill starred.
The
baby cooed and gurgled, and a boy ran down to the cremation ghats
for a priest, and the midwives burned bloody sheets in the garden.
No one, it seemed, had a thought for the dead mother beyond disposing
of her body as quickly as possible. The girl had been an anomaly,
an irritant against the skin of a smooth-running household. Now
there was a silent agreement to treat her as a vision, a temporary
phenomenon that had simply evaporated.
Anjali,
too, thought it was for the best that Amrita had died. It was
a wonder she had lasted so long. The family seemed overjoyed by
their son. So big! So healthy! Yet she could not look at the child
without thinking of his true parentage, of a Brahmin woman defiled
by the pale man in the photograph. Still, she might have been
able to hold her tongueif the child had not become such
a monster.

Reprinted from The
Impressionist by Hari Kunzru by permission of Dutton, a member
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